Me? A Procrastinator...

There are so many things that I've learned that I've found it hard to know where to begin. I have questioned God almost daily as to why He won't take this illness away? Why won't He just heal me? I think I'm being met by silence, but if I really listen I can hear Him speak into my heart all the things that would not have been, had He not allowed this illness.

I would never have understood how people really feel when they are home-bound. Always one to offer my prayers and let people know I'll do whatever they need, I've never been one to initiate meeting their needs. When someone is needy, they aren't going to ask for help. We need to just do it! I am praying that God will heal me enough that I can get out there and start meeting needs. For now, I write notes of encouragement when God lays someone on my heart. And I pray!

Without this illness I wouldn't have realized the true importance of relationship. Oh, I've always been involved in things and had many people around me, but there's always been an event or something to do. Not just sitting and "being" with others. This has forced me to open my home to visitors and to have some of the sweetest times with those that God has brought. And God has amazed me over and over with who He brings. Not those I would have expected. What a joy to make new friends and see the body of Christ really come together!