5 For your Maker is your husband— the LORD Almighty is his name—the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth.
6 The LORD will call you back as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit—a wife who married young, only to be rejected," says your God.
Today is March 30th, in 6 days Don and I would be celebrating our 17th wedding anniversary. Well, it will still be our anniversary, it's just that there won't be a celebration. I am feeling led to send him a note (not something my fleshly nature is really dying to do). Guess I'll give it a couple of days to roll around in my head before I write it and then send it off.
I told Ellie today that she and David would be going to see my new best friend with me tomorrow. (my counselor, Laura). I really didn't think she'd give me much trouble, but boy was I wrong. She gave me the eye roll and said "oh, so we have problems". I had to bite my tongue so as not to say, duh....................! But I told her it was something I was asking her to do for me and I wanted her to have a relationship with her father and I'd never been through something like this before so I needed help figuring it out. Now I really can't wait to tell David. Again, if anyone is out there, please be praying for us tomorrow.
On to a totally different topic: when I first was diagnosed and the doctor's at Northwestern told me I would never get my life back as I knew it, I had three prayer requests. They were-
- for complete healing (which would be a miracle)
- for joy in the midst of these cirumstances
- to do or attempt to do some of the things I've been missing
I realized that I've stopped praying for those things. I'm writing this here, so that I am accountable, I am going to start asking for those things again. I've become WAY too comfortable not trying some things I need to try. I don't even attempt to go out to the mailbox. I need to try. I will post on the things I try, the joy I find, and the healings (however small) that God shows me. God is my husband and HE may begin by healing my broken heart!