I don't know who Satan thinks he is trying to mess with right now but he's messin' with the wrong person. All of a sudden I realized my mind was going down a path it hadn't been down in a long time and I was worrying. Where did that come from? Aha...Satan is at it again. Same old tricks. He's not very creative, so he uses the same tactics on me every time. Gets me to think the worst possible scenarios will come true. I am rebuking him out loud! And claiming victory. (any minute the kids will probably come running out wondering what has happened to their mother...it is 11:30 pm) Oh well, a girl has to do what a girl has to do. And I'm sick of Satan thinking he can get to me. The Lord has told me that He will bring beauty from ashes in my marriage and I am going to stand on that. I cannot control what Don is doing while we live apart but I can trust him into God's hands and that is what I choose to do right now. HA Satan, take that! Boy, I sound stupid.
Tomorrow is a really busy day for us and one of those days where it hits me that I am not well and how much I am dependent on others. David is getting his braces off after 2 years. He is so excited (but I can't be there). I will be at my first counseling session with my new counselor. So my mom will drive me, my dad will drive David. One of my friends will pick David up when he is done. You know, all those things moms usually do but now I lean on others. It's okay, but it's a reminder once again that I am not well. At least for now.
I love the Book of Isaiah. It has been one of my favorite books of the Bible ever since the first time I did Breaking Free by Beth Moore many years ago. (I have done the study at least 5 times). It is a desire of mine to just read back through that book with no intentions other than to hear what God has to say to me. It is rich with words that I need to hear, I know that. I just need to be in His Word - period. Why is that so hard for me to figure out? I am still praying to know Him better, love Him more, and trust Him completely.