Wednesday, April 21, 2010

The Perch

I don't sit on the perch any more.


In so many ways that is a good thing. Because of the measure of healing that God has given me, I don't find myself confined to my house and to the perch. (my couch, for those of you who haven't been around)


But...in many ways, it's not such a great thing. I don't find I need Jesus as much. So I don't spend the time with Him that I should. Makes me sad to think that for 18 months I sat here and begged for healing, He gave it and I walked away. There is something about being in the midst of terrible trials that really is a "gift". I wouldn't know my God the way I do if it hadn't been for the horrible mess of the past 3 years.


I want to want to spend with the Lord. Does that make sense? Not because I am forced onto the perch but because He is what makes my soul complete. Because He is the only source of true joy. He is peace. I want to love Him more just because!!


Life here has been full and empty and exciting and sad and joy filled and heartbreaking. Probably like many of your lives. No matter what my life holds though, God is IN IT!!


Three years ago when I got sick I never imagined that the kids and I would get to take a trip. Yep....we drove to Florida. (I DROVE to Florida) God blessed us with the most amazing time ever! We needed this time away from "reality" and it was good for each of us. I am still praying that God would break the kids' hearts for what breaks HIS. I believe they need to connect with their dad, but....well, it doesn't look good from the world's eyes. But I know that God holds us in the palm of His hand.




Oh yes, last time I was here I told you that God had given me a gift. Funny how things change! He brought an amazing man into my life. He is good for me, he is good for the kids, he is one of those people that is just loved by everyone. Now God has moved him to another state. I am still believing that God has plans for our future together but that I needed time without him so that I could get my relationship with Jesus back on track. It's all good!


I'm back on the perch today and I plan to be back here often.




29 comments:

Heather said...

Welcome back!

I love the photo.

And your words, as always. Your honest and faithful words.

Peace to you.

Heather said...

Oh that's me, Heather of the EO. I keep forgetting to login correctly. whoops.

JD said...

Good to hear from you, Sheryl, you've been missed.

I loved hearing you share where you're at in your journey, with honesty and transparency, as always. I'm proud of you for seeing things from this perspective, and being real about where you are. It will take you far.

I'm sorry that he's in another state, but I think you're on the right track... closer to Jesus, the rest will fall into place!

aimymichelle said...

welcome back my friend. i have missed you!

Michelle said...

Hi pretty...it's good to see you again.

Kim@Seasons of My Heart said...

Sheryl~
Your words have truly touched my heart....and I'm SO thankful that God is doing a healing work in and through your heart and life.

I'm also thankful that you were able to have a vacation with your kids. Yeah.

The perch....and spending time with Abba. Humm...you put so well into words what I know many of us face.

The fire does cause us to seek after him with everything within us....becaue he's truly all that keeps us going.

And just like you shared...it's SO important to go after him with the same reslove...even when things are going OK.

Know that I continue to pray for you as the Lord brings you to my mind.

He has an amazing plan for you...and your precious children.

Blessings

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

I am so excited for you and so happy that your health is better and
looking forward to hearing more about HIM

Diana said...

This made me think of the passaged from Luke 17:12-19. In your heart, you truly are the ONE, not one of the other nine, I believe that, so run back, sing the praise. Keep thanking Him.
It is hard to be dilligent and make the time and walk closely with Him, but think of how much harder it is eventually when we don't. The Lord has been dealing with me a lot lately about abiding. Abide, friend. That He may continue to grow fruit in you and pour through you into the lives around you. Blessings!

C.C. and Double T said...

It is lovely to hear from you again, Sheryl! Welcome back, and keep spending that time with Him. He is the one who will never leave or forsake us! :-)

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Melanie said...

<3 love you. and love the pic too :)

Sassy Granny ... said...

What joy it is to hear the lilt in your voice. I sense hope & eagerness there; true signs of the healing that's been wrought FOR you, and IN you.

He has sordered your steps, friend. And, even as seasons come and seasons go, it sounds like He's going to take you to a new place, a new season in Him. How thrilling!

What a great picture of your family. I love the smiles!

Hugs,
Kathleen

beyond this moment said...

Praise God or all the healing He's done in your life!

I understand how easy it is to fall into thinking we don't need God anymore when things are going well. That thinking traps me a lot too.

Welcome back to the blogiverse. May God continue to draw you closer to Him in the struggles AND the triumphs!

nancygrayce said...

Oh, so glad to "see" you! Where in Florida were you? I would have loved to meet you and your kids. God is so good isn't He? He will never leave us or forsake us, even though we leave for a while, He is right there!

Robin said...

Great photo!!! I'm rejoicing with you and always praying :o) I so understand that need that only God can meet and wanting to feel it in the good times as much as in the bad times!

Beth E. said...

What a great picture of your family! And, what a wonderful post. I appreciate every word.

Sounds as if you are on the right track. Praying that God will order your steps in the days ahead. He has great plans for you!

Blessings...

-stephanie- said...

You sound and look fabulous and happy. God is good!

Laura said...

Sheryl,
You look fabulous! I have missed you so so much! GOD is still at work in your life and I am so honored to call you friend..Wish we got to chat more but just wonderful to hear from you thru your blog. Love ya much!
Hope to chat soon!

Laura

Just a little something from Judy said...

I thought and prayed for the three of you quite often during your trip. I couldn't wait to hear how it all went. You(the three of you)all look so good!

I appreciate your honesty. Don't be so hard on yourself. God knows your thoughts and heart anyway, and He knows you love spending time with Him. Anxious to see the how God will continue to lead the three of you.

lisasmith said...

you look GREAT!!! I'm praying for you, Sheryl.
xoxo

Courtney said...

it's 2:44, still not sleeping. I'm praying that you are, though. You're blessed, sweet friend. I'm so glad he crossed our paths.

Jenn said...

I, too, have found now that my back is better that I am relying on myself way too much. How easy it is to take our eyes off the Lord when things ease up a bit.

So happy to read that you drove to Florida. Whoo-hoo! Praise the Lord!

Looking forward to reading more from you!

Susan said...

FLORIDA!!! Oh Maaaann Id love to go to Florida. Good for you. Glad to see you back. I was wondering where you have been. Its strange huh when the page turns and you find yourself in a whole other chapter of your life. Weird some chapters seem to drag on forever then all of a sudden its like you wake up in OZ or somthing and things are quit different and it feels so good to be in a different chapter. I told the ladies in my bible study class that "Joy" really does come in the morning.
Praise God!
You and your kids look wonderful

~*Michelle*~ said...

Love your raw honesty here.....

I am keeping you in prayer, my friend.

Beautiful pear tree lane said...

OH! Sheryl, How wonderful to hear from you, and to read this most encouraging post. You look wonderful, And I hear healing, and restored joy, in your words and it shows on your face.You are glowing!! May the Lord continue His work in you and your family, as you continue to minister to all of us.
Much love,
Sue

Sonja said...

Wow Sheryl... I haven't been here for awhile, and what an amazing post! I also listened to the song, it's haunting and beautiful!

I so appreciate your honest sharing of how easy it is to go and do our own thing when all is well, and to leave the perch where you sat so long... But God has brought you to a new place during the times when He was all you had. He is going with you into these new places too, as you already know.

I will be back and can't wait to see all that is ahead for you!

Blessings!

Sonja

Meli n Pat said...

I hear ya. Pro's and con's of healing! I love to read of your growing and "stuff", though I'm insanely jealous of your trip to Florida! I'm just going nuts waiting for the snow to melt!!
Sending love!

Lora said...

What a beautiful picture of you all! I'm tickled to hear that you are not perch bound any more - Praise the LORD! Your heartfelt prayer for your children is precious! I pray that your desire for time with Him is filled to overflowing.

Blessings Sheryl,
Lora

sanjeet said...

I love the photo.
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