Monday, September 15, 2008

Pieces

Every time that I come here thinking I am finally going to be write something that will let you know how truly hysterical I am (and humble) God doesn't release me to do that. He and I are still on a very intense journey and that is the path He wants me to stay on for now. Trust me though, I really am hilarious!!

There are pieces of my life that I guess I am not letting God into. I am asking Him to show them to me. They need healing. As someone who "stuffs" things I think I'm doing fine and then...bam...I am overcome by some emotion I thought I had dealt with. Many of you are probably like me in that respect. Wondering, where did that thought or feeling come from? I thought that was taken care of. As I've said before, putting the band aid on it doesn't make it better, exposing it will be what brings healing.

Lord, you know what is in there. Get it out. I do not want to be in the same place spiritually a year from now. I truly do want to know, trust, love! Give me the desire to continue to know you better, so I'll trust you more and understand your love. It is unfathomable for my little mind. You have given me your Holy Spirit to help me to understand those things which are beyond me. Why do I take all that for granted Lord? Oh, I know we've come a long way and I am so grateful. But I know how much more you have for me. I want that peace and that joy and that contentment, that only You can give.

Broken pieces of my life...there are many. Sins, choices, suffering, loss, consequences. But you are putting them back together. You've shown me that. Help me to get out of the way and not to hinder your work in my life. That seems to come up over and over. Do not let me or my actions hinder what You are up to. I do not want to live in your permissive will but in your perfect will. Thank you for trusting me with this pain. You believe in me and you believe that we will come out stronger. You believe that I will be more of the child you created me to be. You're molding me and that's painful but Lord I want to say that I am willing to be willing.

Heal me Lord. The pieces. The pain. The doubt. The heartache. The sin. The brokenness. Just pieces, but in your hands...a Masterpiece. I love you Lord, thanks for taking this journey with me.



21 comments:

Nicole said...

Bless your heart dear Sheryl. God is using you on your journey. Keep listening to His voice and He will heal you and put the pieces back together. He loves you more than you can even imagine and maybe He just wants you all to Himself right now. I don't know where that came from, don't even know if it's biblical or not but I just thought of that. As you sit on your perch and seek His face I pray that you will feel His presence today!

Love,
Nicole

Melinda said...

"I do not want to live in your permissive will, but your perfect will."

My, my, if we could just change to that mindset. Thank you for laying out, so beautifully, what I think we all struggle with more than we might care to admit.

Hugs to you this day,
Melinda

Technonana said...

Sheryl... you are doing just what God wants you to do, and He IS using you to reach others with your witness!!
Still praying!!
Love,
Sharon

Kimberly said...

Sheryl,

Thank you so much for your honesty and transparency. You have such a sweet heart and I am so priveledged to call you friend!

Love you bunches!
Kimberly

Jenn said...

Your post is so truthful and is something that we all struggle with. Thanks for sharing your thoughts!

UL Cards Fan said...

Well I can surely vouch for the fact that Sheryl is hilarious; she is NOT as funny as I am but it is a worthy goal she is striving towards.

Sheryl,
Our Father must be so pleased that you are willing to let Him mold you into the woman He alone has created. Your friendship has blessed me beyond measure. I love you TONS.

LINDA

Suzanne said...

Wonderful post..as usual. :)

"As someone who "stuffs" things I think I'm doing fine and then...bam...I am overcome by some emotion I thought I had dealt with."

I can totally identify with that. I always try to be a positive person, so I try to make myself believe I'm "fine", when sometimes I'm just not.

You are making such a difference in the lives of others by your honest writing. I appreciate you so much.

Love ya!

Suzanne :)

Mandi Cornett said...

I know what you mean about wanting just to be...light and funny but real life is real and hard. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. He is the Master Painter and He is not flustered at all with all of our messes. Praise His Name!

R.L.Scovens said...

Hi there! This is my first visit but won't be my last. Great post. It's good to see that you truly want to grow in Christ! I don't want to be the same a year from now either...God is able!

Amrita said...

Dear Sheryl,
You are on the right road and I say Amen to that honest prayer.

I feel like that myself many times.

Couldn 't find your email address.Can you send it to me at
christslave@gmail.com

Jan and Tom's Place said...

You're included in our DAY of PRAYER post today!

~Blessings,
Jan

His Girl said...

reading your journey is one of the things I missed the most on my bloggy standstill- i'm so glad to see that you are still writing beautiful, lovely things that inspire me to grow in Him.

you are just truckin' down the path,and I am so impressed- keep going :)

Anonymous said...

Indeed, a masterpiece. What a perfect explanation Sheryl.

I believe there's a wicked sense of humor hiding in there somewhere! Can't wait to see it on your blog.

Denise in Texas

Paula (SweetPea) said...

Reading and admiring your words.
Love ya,
Paula

Joyfulsister said...

Amen Sheryl,
You are indeed a master piece in your father's hands, shaping and molding you. It's one day at a time sweet sister, he makes all things beautiful, and well, in his time. Let him continue to carry you through at his pace, you just snuggle in the palm of his hands let him love you, let him minister to you, let him hold ever so closely, let him keep you in his care till his will be done in your life.

Hugz Lorie

Sharon said...

Hello,
I am new to your site, and have found myself overwhelmed and happy that I have stumbled and found such and incouraging, and inspiring individual.
I loved reading the journey that you are on, and see that you are blessed to be a blessing to others.
I am soooo looking forward to reading more, so I am adding you so I don't miss a thing!! :)
God Bless
Sharon

Michelle said...

What a great post, Sheryl. So honest and transparent as you share about your journey. I love how God is using you to encourage so many others. Thanks again so much for sharing your heart :) As always, you're often in my thoughts and prayers :)

A Lamp Unto My Feet said...

Sheryl -

I take the liberty of saying that you speak for a lot of us. Such an inspiring post.

God's permissive will - as freeing as it can be - when mis-used will cause many heartaches. I know that personally.

God bless your beautiful heart.

Myriam

Susan said...

Hey Sheryl,

Oh, I just loved that song, isn't Kari Jobe just great? Sometimes I wonder what places all those beautiful melodies come from in her life.

That is what your writing is like to us.

God is using all those broken pieces to put together the most beautiful vessel that brings Him honor and glory.

Thanks for being such a caring and faithful friend~

Jenn @ Casa de Castro said...

Thank you for your transparency and honestly as always, Sheryl. I learn so much from you.

For some much lighter fare, come on over to my spot and play along if you'd like.

Have a wonderful weekend!

Linda said...

Sheryl,

I want to encourage you. I went through the process and am now far beyond the hurt to healing. I was betrayed, rejected, separated, shattered, pieced together, renewed, healed.

In my brokenness, my quiet times with God were a puzzle. Literally. I would visualize the shattered pieces of my life strewn about me. My prayers were questions. I had no idea how to fit things back together, but God certainly did.

One by one, I would ask Him about the pieces and He would say no, yes or not yet. The miracle was the new pieces He got to add because there was now a place for them to fit. Pieces that took me by surprise. Pieces that changed me forever. Pieces that made me more like His vision of me.

The interesting thing about His pieces, is that He laid them down with the rest of the broken shards. I had to choose to pick them up. Watch for the creative way God reshapes you and your life. He heals. He loves. He makes all things new. Choose to pick them up.