Random While Waiting

This is going to be all over the place, so hold on!!

If you read my last post you will remember that my One Word for this year is "Healed". I committed to living as someone who has received the ultimate healing because of Christ's sacrifice on the cross. Whoa...I did NOT know it was going to be so tough. Good thing we don't know what waits for us around the corner, huh?

Last night I received an email from someone wanting to encourage me. She shared some verses that as she said "brought her spiritual strength through the darkest of times".

We are having some dark times right now. Well, they seem dark when I look at them with my human eyes. David (my son) is no longer living here. It became apparent that if I didn't take action now he might stay on the road to self destruction. So, guess where he is staying? WITH HIS DAD!! Is David thrilled about this? No. But that is not the point. He needs a good dose of "dad" in his life and we are doing what we think is best for him.

So, back to those verses that were shared with me. Psalm 27: 13 & 14 "I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD".

I am believing that I will see the goodness of the LORD even in this situation. Already I see the beauty from the ash in the fact that David's dad is getting to spend time with him. He has wanted restoration of that relationship for over three years. I am not saying it is restored but it sure is a start. What satan meant for evil God will use for good.

My symptoms have been raging since the beginning of the year....where is God in that? Well, He sends people at just the right time, it kept me at home with plenty of time to pray over what to do about David, reminds me to be grateful for the ordinary....

Are you tired of waiting for God to show up in a certain situation? Guess what? He is already there! He just hasn't answered or acted in the way YOU want. Well it is not about us. It is all about HIM.

Take heart and wait for the LORD.....I am trying.

p.s. for those of you who have asked about "my man"....it was his mom that sent me those verses!!

Healed

Healed.

That is my One Word for 2011. My friend Alece over at Grit and Glory writes a blog post at the beginning of each year where she challenges us to pick our one word. I have been dragging my feet writing this post because I don't know if I will be able to follow through with living out my word.

Healed.

Isaiah 53:5 says, "But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was on him, and by his wounds we are healed. "

Do you see that? Don't miss how HUGE that is. He was pierced, crushed, punished and wounded so that we would be healed! That is not a physical healing but something even greater. A healing of our hearts and spirits.

Healed people forgive.
Healed people love with a genuine love.
Healed people need not fear.
Healed people aren't selfish.
Healed people trust.
Healed people let go of the past and don't hold grudges
Healed people believe what God says.
Healed people don't need others to fill their emptiness.
Healed people....have so much that God has offered to us and yet we don't fully receive His gift.

Jesus did not suffer the cross that we could live lukewarm lives. He offers us peace! What would it be like to let God's peace truly rule our lives.

Tired of living wounded. I want to walk in the freedom of Jesus' healing.

Here I go...I am going to do my best to honor God's enormous sacrifice and start living HEALED.

Not About Me

I know that you are waiting for a new post and I so appreciate your patience. Guess what? You have to keep waiting for any news about me because I want you to read what my friend Alece had to say. This link will take you to the post, but I suggest that you hang around, read other posts and get to know Alece & her story. God IS faithful!!

WHAT????

I have officially been away from here for two months!!! That seems impossible.

I have no clue what to write. So...do you have questions for me or ideas of where I should begin?? I would appreciate any jump start that you can give me. Or....is it possible that the blog has run its course....

Thanks!

This Boy

I first wrote this post on August 17, 2009...I am reposting it and asking you to pray.

This boy...

chosen by God

marked for a purpose

Floundering

wondering

why and when will he know

"Don't we all have a purpose"?

Yes.

"I don't"

Oh yes son, you do!!

This boy...

with a heart toward God

yet a heart overcome with fear.

A heart filled with sadness

Loss

Feeling unworthy

Questions

"I pray but

He doesn't hear me

He doesn't bless me"

This boy

wonders what he did.

How do you tell him that he did nothing.

Wondering why his dad left

why is his mom sick

why can't he do better in school

Why?

No answers.

But this I know.

This boy...

is loved!

This boy...

loves!

This boy

may not feel blessed

but he IS a blessing.

This boy will be used by God.

He will have a story.

He will reach out.

This boy...

how I love him.

Thank you God, for entrusting him to me.

Show Me

I get to start a new Bible study this morning. I never thought I would get to go back after I became ill...I am sooo excited. We are studying the book of Isaiah for the entire year. If you have been around here long, you know that is my favorite book in the entire Bible.

For now would you just listen to the words of this song. Trust me there is a correlation between the song and starting Bible study. I'll be back to share my heart on another day.





Off to see the beauty in God's Word this morning,

Jill.....

Please go read Jill's story. She is in her last moments as God will be calling her home soon. She has fought the battle with ALS valiantly and has continued to point each of us to Christ. It is for HIS glory. Click HERE to see what God has done and maybe leave her family an encouraging comment.

Thanks!

If Life is Good

I woke up to this sweet comment on Facebook from my friend Diana over at My Walk of Faith...she said, "I miss you blogging... I hope it's because life is so good you just don't have a moment to spare. :)"

Sweet comment? Yes! But it also made me think, ouch!! The purpose of this blog was to keep a record of my journey with the Lord. To bring Him glory for what HE is doing through and with my life. If my life is good it is only because of Him. If you've read my past few posts you know that I am a bit stalled in my relationship with God. I know it's normal and it will pass but I still don't like it.

However, life really is pretty good and I think I should fill you in on a few things.

I went to Florida at the beginning of the month. I GOT ON A PLANE!! My symptoms were pretty much non-existent and I had a fabulous trip. Spent some quality time with the man that God brought into my life and enjoyed every second of it. My heart was filled with gratitude for a God who loves me enough that He cared about every little detail of that trip.

Guess who stayed with David while I was gone? HIS DAD!! Yep. Don came and stayed at the house with David and they had a great time. (Ellie was out of town with her cousin) Don and David have continued getting together and God is slowly building a relationship between them. There is a part of me that is having a hard time with it but I know it's what we all have prayed for. Beauty from ashes!

When I opened up my blog this morning I went to the sidebar to see what today's verse is and this is what I found: "Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken nor my covenant of peace be removed," says the Lord who has compassion on you. Isaiah 54:10

God has promised His love will never be shaken. It can't be changed. No matter what I do, His love does not change! He will never remove His peace from my life. It is always there. I need to cling to it!! He is at work in my family. I hope you all know that He is also at work in your own lives. He loves you. The God of the universe loves YOU.

Thanks for continuing to come along on this wild ride with me,

Standing on the Fence

Go visit my friend Amber....this is a MUST READ whether married or not. We all need to step away from the fence. Click HERE to go read.