Did you see the play, "Rent"? Well, I did not. But one of my favorite songs is from that play. It's called "Seasons of Love". Here are some of the lyrics:
525,600 minutes, 525,000 moments so dear.
525,600 minutes - how do you measure, measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee.
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.
In 525,600 minutes - how do you measure a year in the life?
How about love? How about love? How about love? Measure in love.
Seasons of love.
525,600 minutes! 525,000 journeys to plan.
525,600 minutes - how can you measure the life of a woman or man?
In truths that she learned, or in times that he cried.
In bridges he burned, or the way that she died.
It's time now to sing out,
tho the story never ends let's celebrate remember a year in the life of friends.
Remember the love!
Remember the love! Remember the love!
Measure in love.
Seasons of love! Seasons of love.
Now, you're wondering what on earth does that have to do with anything?? Well, today it has been one year since I got sick. 525,600 minutes. Unbelievable to me. One year has gone by. There would have been a time where I would have said a year that I've lost. A year that I'll never get back, what a waste. Oh but I haven't lost. It wasn't wasted. I've gained so much.
It is about the minutes. And the minutes have been filled with pain, joy, love, heartache, loss, laughter, friendship, Christ, the Church, agony, tears, prayer, memories made, more tears, more laughter, and it goes on and on. Each minute is a minute I will never get back but I do think for the most part, each minute was used to make me more like Christ. Would I want my year to have looked like this? NO WAY! It has been beyond difficult. Would I choose for my husband to have left us? NO WAY! But God is not surprised. He knew what each of these 525,600 minutes would hold. And He told me from the beginning that if I will look to HIM, not a minute would be wasted.
I'm wondering what the next year has in store. But I hope to take it minute by minute. I believe there will be restoration. Restoration of my health. Restoration of my marriage and family. I don't know how it will look. It may not be the way I would choose it. But I am letting go and letting God have this year. Without Him, I don't know where I'd be. Literally!!
I pray that the next 525,600 minutes will be measured by "Seasons of Love". Love to my Father. Love from my Father.