First off, thank you for indulging me on my last post. There were many of you that I had never heard from before and it is so great to meet you! I appreciate you all. I have only a handful of "in real life" friends that have my blog address, so it's good to meet all of those that God has brought into my life through blogging. Just a quick shout out to Tym...I know you're reading!!
Okay, now back to my regular writing. Which you know is not regular at all and we never know where it's going to take us. Today is no different but I need to journal some things that have happened so that I will never forget.
God amazed me once again with the way He answers prayer. Over and above my expectations. Many of you have been faithful to pray for my son, David, as he deals with all that is going on his life right now. (especially where his dad is concerned) I had decided to take him to a different counselor and told him the night before we were going. All he said was that he was not happy about it. (that is him being mean - ha) That counseling session was so God ordained I cannot put it into words. David thanked me for caring enough to take him, made another appointment, and told me when we got in the car - "that dude's pretty cool". Isn't God GREAT!! Your prayers are necessary and appreciated.
It has been made very clear to me that I have been forsaking being in The Word. Funny when you have so much time on your hands you never do the important things. At least that is the case for me. I know that His Word is life, yet I haven't been in it. Not sure why. Just felt that same disconnect to reading my Bible as I've had in praying. It's satan, I know that, but I've been letting him win.
Today I decide that I am reading my Bible no matter what! Not to fill out answers in a study. Not with any agenda, just read. So I figure I'll read the Proverb for today and read Proverbs 3. Good stuff. All about wisdom and how important wisdom is. Then I think, well I'll read a Psalm and I ask God which one. In my head I hear 119. (now those of you that know The Word know where I'm going, but I was oblivious). I open up to Psalm 119 and laugh out loud. Oh sure, take me to the longest chapter in the Bible. Real funny, Lord. YOU have a sense of humor. So I read all 176 verses. (I had a lot of time to make up for so He was making sure I had plenty to read) Boy, did I need to be there.
Psalm 119 is about the importance of His word, His precepts, His laws and decrees. How will I know them unless I read them? So verse 16 says "I delight in your decrees; I will not neglect your word." Ok, ok, I get it!! Verse 71 "It was good for me to be afflicted so that I might learn your decrees". Quit shouting at me Lord. And I know He is not shouting out of anger but with that love that wants me to really understand how important it is. You see, I have been "basically" home bound since June 2007 because of my illness. Sure I leave the house some but for the most part my life stopped. That is 16 months that I could have been learning His Word. Really eating it up. Don't worry I'm not having a guilt trip here - now I know what I should have done and will be doing it from here on out.
Verses 153-154 "Look upon my suffering and deliver me, for I have not forgotten your law. Defend my cause and redeem me; preserve my life according to your promise." What awesome words. Yes I am suffering but He will deliver me. That may not be through healing but I know He knows! And He is defending my cause in the break up of my marriage. He will redeem me and preserve my life. Life hurts. I need wisdom. God has all the answers. If I will look to His Word first He will show me the way.
Isn't God great? I mean, really! He speaks to me personally. In a way that I would find funny and just a bit sarcastic. It's not the same way He would speak to each of you. God doesn't just love all of His children...He loves you...He loves me. And He will speak to you one on one. I am saying these things to myself so that I won't soon forget. Lord, keep drawing me to yourself and to your Word. Your words are life. They are alive and active. Don't let me miss what you have just for me.