A week away from this place. I've not known what to say, so I've said nothing. However, I think some are beginning to worry. No worries! Just a lot to process right now. My focus needs to change, it must. I know I've said it before but the Lord has made it abundantly clear. Focus on God alone not on my circumstances. So much easier said than done but that's what I'm aiming for.
God has taught me many things this week. First of all I am out of my bed. HALLELUJAH!! That does not mean I am well or healed but I'm able to get up and sit on the couch. I have even had to go to several appointments this week. So I am very grateful for this reprieve in my symptoms! (thank you for praying) Anyway, things God has taught me - or is beginning to teach me (I am a slow learner). God is enough. If I have nothing else my soul should be satisfied with God alone. I believe I am in a time of Sabbath from life, from my marriage, from ministry, so that I can focus on God alone and really learn that if all else is stripped away I still have the greatest gift, the greatest relationship ever planned!
Isn't it crazy that we have the king of kings, the Savior of the world pursuing us and wanting to spend time with us, yet we run to other things or other people to find comfort and satisfaction? And it is so temporary and always lets us down. God intended us to only find true satisfaction in Him alone.
Beauty from ashes...He has promised that to me. So I want to tell you what beauty I have seen already even in the midst of the darkest time of my life.
I have seen beauty in my children. They wrote me the most beautiful letters for Mother's Day. To read the words of a 15 year old son...oh my! And my 12 year old made her own card with my favorite flower and beautiful words. The best was when they walked in with a huge pot of that favorite flower - orange gerbera daisies!!
I've seen beauty in my friends. They've been such a help. Also God has given me many opportunities to be a witness for Him in the way I speak of my husband to them. The friends of the world have a different perspective of how I should treat my husband but I know what God has said and hopefully we're planting seeds.
Beauty in being able to walk around my home. Oh how we take our health for granted. At least I did.
Beauty in spending more time with the Lord, really seeking His will. Learning more and more about how much He loves me. If I only focus on His love and not man's love I will not be let down.
He has set me aside for a time. I know there is a calling on my life. I'm scared about it sometimes. Maybe that's why I'm set aside so He can show me that it's not about me it is about HIM!!
Okay, enough rambling. I shouldn't stay away so long, I get long winded.
I just noticed the Bible verse for today in the right panel: Submit to God and be at peace with him; in this way prosperity will come to you. Accept instruction from his mouth and lay up his words in your heart.
Job 22 : 21-22
Lord, help me to submit so that I will be at peace. Help me to accept your instruction and truly store them in my heart.