Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Desperate

Desperate?

Am I desperate?

Yes, I believe I am. Desperate for Jesus to come in and fill up my life! I've had enough of worrying. Enough of the anxiety. Enough of the hurt and the anger. Empty me, Lord. I am desperate.

This is really not a bad place to be. This place of desperation. Where you realize that you simply cannot do it any more. I'm not talking morbidly about giving up on your life. I'm talking about realizing that you need more of God. There is no use trying to "do" life in your own power.

David and Don will be together today. That is supposed to bring me great joy. It does not. So, today I am asking God to take over my emotions and to forgive me for my attitude. I am desperate for God to work today!

It's easy to say you want certain things. Or that you believe certain things. Until you are faced with them. I don't want to be full of lip service. And I know I can be. It's hard for our humanness to not get in the way, but I am desperate for God to lead.

God has chosen to wrestle with me. I have been chosen. That is humbling! The God of the universe has His eyes and heart set on me and believes there is something worth wrestling through. I am desperate to learn from this. I am desperate to be different.

If you are in a desperate place right now, seek Him more. He has not abandoned you. In our desperation we need to bend the knee, look up, reach out to Him, empty ourselves and beg Him to take our desperation and make it into what HE wants.

Desperate and grateful for it!


18 comments:

Lemonade Makin' Mama said...

I hope the visit goes well!! For your sake, and your son's.

Worry is such a heart suffocating thing. I hope Jesus just puts his arms around you today.

Sasha

Kim in NC said...

When talking to a friend the other day and telling her that I didn't know how much longer I could hold it together, she said she would pray for me right then. I also went and opened my bible and on the page I opened to was this verse highlighted...

2 Corinthians 12:9"...My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness..." Is that good or what?!

As always, great post!

Becca and Dee said...

Beautifully written! Thanks for sharing your truth. Your words spoke volumes to me. Thanks you so much.

Love you....Rebecca

Paula (SweetPea) said...

You have described perfectly where I am right now. Emotionally desperate for Him, more of Him. I know that and now I need to act on it by seeking Him more and being with Him more.

Thanks for putting this to words for me.

Just a little something from Judy said...

Did you ever go on a journey with someone...someone you didn't even know? Well, that is what it feels like whenever I read your blog. I am drawn to it, and it always causes me to leave committed to prayer for you, your two precious teenagers and Don. I see by this blog that there are others on the journey too, with you. Keep pressing on my friend. You are not alone!

God's girl said...

Oh, your post brings tears to my eyes. I needed to hear God spoken through you tonight...thank you for being "desperate" for Jesus, it gives others, such as myself, permission to admit the same feelings.

"I cannot do this anymore, but God CAN!"

Thank you! Heaven

-stephanie- said...

I need your posts. They make me think.

I remember a specific thing that God chose me for. Not the most fun thing I had to do, but it felt so wonderful that God chose me to deliver. Very humbling indeed.

Under the Florida Sun said...

Praying for you this day..

Awhile back I learned not only through circumstances, but by the sweet words of TRUTH.. when I am feeling empty.. that is when I realize that God is already there.. I am filled with the Holy Spirit.. not slightly, not half way.. but to the full.. I don't have to wait to be filled.. I just need to surrender, stop , and seek His peace..

Praying you will sense His overwhelmingly presence this day.

Lissa said...

well i am in a desperate place right now and I don't like it! Fight girlie! You can do it! I hope you have a good report to share from the visit! xo

Michelle said...

There is always such wisdom and honesty in your posts, Sheryl...and I love it. You have such a beautiful heart!

Thanks for the sweet words you wrote to me about Tyler's graduation party...you're always so kind!

Have a wonderful day...just rest in Him!

Love,
Michelle

Leslie said...

Was your son looking forward to being with his dad? I pray that it went well.

Even when it's God that we're wrestling with, He's on our side and rooting for us! The outcome will be a win-win situation for both Him and you!

Hugs and Blessings, Leslie

Ang baylis said...

I also know how you feel and I'm right there with you, sister! After all of this time, it still hurts sometimes. I'm praying you are clinging to Him. I'm SOOOOOO glad you are blogging about it to get some good encouragement from so many amazing women God put in your life (even if it's through a computer screen)!
Much love,
Angie xoxo

Farmgirl Paints said...

I hope the visit goes well. Remember you are human and lip service or not, it is human to struggle in times like these. I'll say a prayer for you Sheryl.

Nicole said...

Praying for you right now. I hope that the visit went well, but even if it didn't I know that God is up to something and sometimes there has to be chaos first. He is in the middle of it and all over it. I know He is! Love you!

Jennifer said...

I'm currently in a bible study for spiritual warefare. And, to say the least it's been an eye opener. The armor of God is a daily thing and as long as I want to remain strong in my faith I will need to wear every piece of it: helmet of salvation to protect my mind, breastplate to protect my heart, to make sure I always wear my belt of truth and to never take it off, and to make sure my feet are covered to ensure that I am always walking in faith. Remember my friend, to always be prepared. Oh yeah, make sure your sword(the word of God) is pointed straight towards the enemy.
May your heart grow peaceful and may the Holy Spirit fill you up.

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

I love all your posts....sorry I have been away for a couple of weeks...hope to visit lots of blogs this weekend..

Just Be Real said...

Amen, this is where I am at now. Blessings, and thank you for sharing!

Susan said...

Oh, how much our Father delights in your desperation.

I want to be desperate for Him always.

Great post.

Thanks for being so real♥