Sunday, July 19, 2009

Life Stinks!?

Have you ever read a blog that was just full of complaints and moaning? Honestly, I can't stand reading that stuff. If you consistently focus on the negative...you become negative. If you can't find God's goodness in the midst of your chaos...I don't have much patience.

So, I will definitely NOT be reading this post. It will be full of complaining and moaning and negativity! You've been warned, so feel free to move right along.

I want to trade in my deck of cards for a new one. I want someone to wave a magic wand and make all things better. I want help in raising my kids. I want a "do over".

There is one teenager in my house that is in crisis. He worries me. He breaks my heart.

There is another teen in my house that lets her true feelings peek out only every once in awhile. They peeked out today. Wow, it's sad!

We are all wallowing in it today. You know, one of those days when you just jump in the mud pit, roll around and just let everyone around you know how bad it is!! Good thing it's the three of us here and we aren't subjecting anyone else to our ugly moods. (except those of you who are still reading!)

"Nothing in life is going right". That is the quote of the day. Instead of telling the kids all the things that are good, I am letting them vent. I need those days myself. And honestly, it really does feel like nothing is going right.

My last post was about being desperate. Didn't think that I was going to become even more desperate, but that is indeed what has happened. I truly do believe that my God has not forgotten me, He has not forgotten my kids. I read today in Isaiah and was reminded again that I am engraved on the palms of His hands. I am asking God to bring relief, to show Himself, to strengthen me, to be a parent to my kids, to provide, to heal. And you know what, I am not asking anything of Him that He is not able to do.

Life stinks right now, but God isn't surprised.

Life stinks right now but I wouldn't trade it for anyone else's.


28 comments:

Brittany said...

sheryl, i am so sorry! I know I can say that forever and its not going to change what has happened, but I am sorry! Neither you or your kids deserve to go through this. It's not fair or right. God always wants his best for us but sometimes his best isn't always easiest. Hang in there, and when you see a light at the end of the tunnel keep your eyes focused on it!

Love, Brittany

Lemonade Makin' Mama said...

Oh Sweet Sheryl,
My heart is so heavy for you, and I didn't at all mind reading your sadness today. We just have those days, and I constantly say that "Life is messy, and we have to embrace it." Not fun, but true.

I just prayed Philippians 4:8 over you and both of your children right this minute.

Bless you sister,
Sasha

Laura said...

Ok. When I read your post.. I was so convicted at 1st and something that came to my mind is that how freeing to say that well life sucks right now but knowing you are open and desperate for the LORD reminds me again of his continued work in your life.
I love you. Praying for you.
Laura

Kristen said...

aww I am so sorry. You had me laughing with how you began your post though :) I hope tomorrow brings new promises & moods!!

beyond this moment said...

I think there's a difference between whining and sharing your struggles - one brings everyone down and the other lifts God up as people watch how He works in your life.

So thank-you for sharing your struggles. Whatever God is doing in your family is going to be amazing - but probably unexpected.

I'm sorry you're hurting. But we know you have hope - if the unjust judge will answer the persistant woman, how much more will God give to one of His own?

Teresa @ Grammy Girlfriend said...

Sheryl,

I am praying for you and so sorry that things are so rough .....Please hang on......You are loved.

Alicia, The Snowflake said...

Amen! I am right there with you. I know that God has not forgotten us either. And some days that is all that keeps me going.

I will definitely say a prayer my friend. May He give you the grace and the strength to keep putting one foot in front of the other!

His Girl said...

I love that you're letting your kids express their emotions without telling them they have no reason to be sad or angry...

well done, mama, I know you're giving them the flip side to it too...the Good news part :)

Amrita said...

hugs to you Sheryl

Anonymous said...

sorry

He & Me + 3 said...

Man Sheryl...I am so sorry that it has been so rough. I love your attitude. It is ok to state the facts that life stinks right now & it is tough, because God did not promise us that all would be perfect & easy...He just promised us that He would be there & never leave us nor forsake us.
Hang in there. I am praying for you!
Hugs,
Mimi

God's girl said...

All I have for you is tears, and the promise that God is still faithful. I don't know how many times I have thought your post, yet never really spoke it. Thanks for vocalizing what I didn't really have the courage to do. It is hard. I am praying that you will feel God's peace and arms holding you tight tonight:) I appreciate your honesty:)

Heaven

UL Cards Fan said...

Love you, lifting you all up in prayer.

Linda

C.C. and Double T said...

Sheryl,

I have no words. All I can say is that I am praying for you...

Kim said...

Praying for you today!!!

Kim in NC said...

I would let you use my magic wand, but I'm pretty sure it's broken...

Hoping today's a better day!

Farmgirl Paints said...

When you're at the bottom there is only way out ... up right?? I hope for your sake. I would love to make it all better for you. I don't even know what to say, except that God is control and this storm will not last forever.

I pray Jeremiah 29:11 over you. Especially the hope and future part! He knows...

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Love,
Nicole

Jenn @ A Country Girl's Ramblings said...

Oh Lord, please cover Sheryl and her children with your love. Help them to feel your presence. Cover them with your mercy and grace. You know the struggles they are facing and I just pray that you will help them to see You through all of the difficulties. Help each of them to draw near to you and fill them up with your strength.

Paula (SweetPea) said...

Wow...great stinkin' post. :-) You had me there in the beginning, i was self-conscientously thinking "have I written anything that bad and negative lately that would offend someone." Then, you went on to do it yourself. ha!

You are right, sometimes, we need someone to allow our venting and agree that it stinks...then refocus on the good.

I know how it feels to have a life of stink.

Robin's New Song said...

Dear Sheryl, hang on sister. I do understand the pain and loneliness and also in hindsight for me, that it does get darkest before the dawn. God does have a breakthrough for you and your children and it is just around the corner! Col 1:11 is my prayer for you

Kimberly said...

Love ya Sherly! Been thinking about you all and praying for you all day!

kb

Lucy said...

((hugs))

Technonana said...

Hello Sheryl!! I'm not going there with you!!! It's really okay to tell God that this stinks!!! and I will Amen you in that!!
But I KNOW, AND YOU KNOW, that God has great plans for you... and as hard as it is to believe right now... in this very moment... one day you will look back and say... God allowed me to use this time to encourage others... and that My Precious Friend is a calling that few can handle!!
The Lord your God SEES, Knows and Hears your cries!!!
Joining you on my knees for you and your precious children!!
But... you Know you HAVE to GET OUT OF THAT PIT!!
Love you,
Sharon

Alicia, The Snowflake said...

I was coming to check on you and realized I had been by recently. I have such a bad memory ;) I really do hope you're having a better week!

nancygrayce said...

I think you're very wise to let the kids vent! I mean, let's face it, sometimes life does stink. Sometimes it isn't fair....but God is always sovereign! Sometimes, in fact, a LOT of times, it is extremely hard to see that, but He never leaves us or forsakes us! The nice thing about the blog world is that you know many are praying.

Lissa said...

what I'm learning is, when you come to the end of you and realize you can't do it anymore, that's when you're able to surrender to God because you can't do it but he CAN! (I may sound very wise but I just learned this yesterday...) He's still in control! He hasn't brought you this far to abandon you!!

Kee said...

Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you and praying for you.
Love and Hugs
Kiesha