Yep, today I (we) have been married 17 years! Unfortunately since we are separated there won't be any celebrating but I'm still praying for restoration. Ya know, beauty from ashes...God can do it but there may be a lot of pain and struggle along the way.
Beautiful day today. Sunny. Warm. (well, it is Michigan, 50's are warm around here) Ellie went for 9 minutes of tanning and is now laying out on the trampoline. It makes it feel much warmer when you're laying out on a big black mat!! Only one more day until we're back to school and she's gotta squeeze in all the sun she can. She's a girl after my own heart. I'd be out there too, if only I could!
I've been thinking a lot about people letting people down. They have good intentions (I know I've blogged about this before, so forgive me) but they don't have follow through. I don't have follow through either. We are all going to let each other down. I understand that. But there are times when we are truly dependent on others for our needs and they are not there. (my family - parents, brothers, sis-in -laws have always been there) We attend a huge church and you would think in a church that size that we should be able to meet the needs of one another, especially once the needs are known. Maybe it's because of the size of the church. If we were in a smaller church, it might feel more like family, people wouldn't assume that someone else is already taking care of it, etc. I don't mean to be doggin' everybody but I want to be different once I'm well. I want to be a person that will be there for those that can't "do" for themselves.
My mother-in-law is still having chemo every single Monday morning. She has breast cancer. Double mastectomy last spring and then a year of chemo. She is almost done. Have I been there for her? NO! Now I could say that it's because I've not been well, but would I have been then for her otherwise. I don't think so. I don't like that about myself. There are a lot of things that God is revealing to me that I don't particularly care for. I sit, He shows me, we work on it together and I hope to be different.
Is it a Happy Anniversary? No. But it is my anniversary. 17 years ago I made a commitment to Don until death do us part and I will keep that commitment. Lord, help me!