I read other's blogs on a daily basis. And I realize how much fun everyone else is having!! My blog seems like such a downer. I know it's my life right now but I need to bring some joy into it. As many of you who have been following along know, I have "complained" about being forgotten. Those people who you think would surround you in your time of need, have just not been there. However, God has brought a whole new batch up of people.
Well...after all my "complaining", all of a sudden women are coming out of the woodwork to help out. Someone is organizing my grocery shopping, house cleaning, meals, etc. AND we have had more food brought into this house in the past 5 days then we could ever even begin to eat. Freezer is full. We've already had one dinner brought tonight and another is on its way. When it rains, it pours but I cannot complain about that. However, some of the food...well I just have to wonder? Boy I sound ungrateful but let's just say my parents have gotten loads of leftovers in the last couple of days. They are enjoying the overflow of less than fabulous food. They don't seem to mind.
I love the heart of a woman that is willing to pitch in. Even if it's not edible (ha) Because there are so many who say with their words that they will help but then nothing....I am trusting God that He will heal me and I will get to be a blessing. For now I pray for the needs of others since I can't meet those needs and know that's what He's called me to.
Am I the only one who has a hard time praying for myself though? It seems as things get worse and worse, I just can't even find the words to pray. That is when I am SO glad for the body of believers who pray. And for Jesus, our intercessor, who goes before the Father on our behalf. He knows our needs better than we do. Sometimes I just cry out the name of Jesus because that's all this heart can muster, but I know HE knows.
Wow I started out talking about how much fun everyone else is having on their blogs and here I am with another deep post. Oh well, this is what I have been given for now. To record this journey and that's what I'm doing. Hoping and praying that one day I will be posting that He has brought beauty from ashes. Obviously there are still some things that need the refining fire.