April 1st? Can it be already? The kids only have 8 weeks of school left. I have "lost" almost a year of my life. But in losing that year I have gained so much! I truly believe my life will be better for having had this illness. And the lives of my children will be better. But this illness does not define me. I am kind of sick of writing about it, except that it does affect nearly every aspect of my life, so it's hard to write without including it.
The kids actually did not die at the counseling sesssion yesterday. As I knew, they actually like Laura and they really opened up. We have a LONG road ahead of us and counseling will be a crucial part of the healing, they just don't know it yet. They amaze me though, my kids. They are incredibly wise, insightful and thoughtful for being 12 and 15. Actually they are more wise, insightful and thoughtul than a lot of adults I know. Right now they need time to extend grace to their dad on their terms and we pray that they will want to meet with him and begin some healing. Don will be their dad for the rest of their lives, whether they like it or not. And their mom is still praying for full family restoration. (I know it will take a miracle, but my Father is a God of miracles. He loves to show off! And this would be a biggie.)
Ellie is going to the dentist today for a cleaning and she thinks because it is April Fool's Day that she will come out with all her teeth painted. How funny is that? I am waiting for the first prank that the kids pull on me. David is going for a haircut in a couple minutes, please don't come out with a shaved head. He has great hair!! Not all moms would approve. But I love it.
April Fool's. The dictionary says a fool is someone who lacks judgment or sense. That is not me. That will not be said of me or how I carry myself through this "separation". I will continue to pray God's healing and not believe the lies of the biggest fool! Satan, you have no place in this home. We are trusting God!